Ask Slutever: Am I a Lez?

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I’m a 22 year old girl, I’ve been with my boyfriend for 5 year, and I’ve been thinking about having sex with girls for over 3 years. But if I’m honest with myself, I’ve always known, in the back of my mind, that I like girls. I’ve cheated on my boyfriend–I kissed a few girls, had sex with one of them, and I think I fell in love with one of my girlfriends. But to me it wasn’t really cheating because I felt I had the right to explore my sexuality, and did not feel any guilt, but rather extreme happiness that I was getting to know myself better. I love my boyfriend to bits, and I feel like he’s the only man I can be with (our sex life is still great), but at the same time I feel absolutely zero attraction for other men, and feel like a teenage girl with butterflies in my stomach every time I see a hot girl. I’ve told my bf that I like girls, but he just got horny and said we should have a threesome. I wouldn’t mind that! We’ve been trying to find the right person to do it with for over a year but it’s not easy. But when I tried to explain to my bf that I really really like girls, he seemed unfazed.

Anyway, the point is that I don’t know how to explain to my bf that this is more than a fantasy for me, and that I think if I repress these feelings now I will be unhappy forever. But at the same time I don’t want to end my relationship with him because I’m scared of losing him for something that’s maybe just a phase. I know I can’t have everything, but I wish I could. I’m so confused!

Yay, you’re part gay, how exciting!! I personally believe that a person’s sexual orientation can change and evolve with time. (Look at me! I’ve been a lesbian for over two years now. Didn’t see that one coming…) Maybe you’re discovering a part of your sexuality that you didn’t know existed when you met you boyfriend. Or maybe this is a new facet of your sexuality that’s here to stay. Or, sure, maybe these lez feelings are “a phase.” But so what? Why should that make them any less valid?

I don’t get why, when it comes to sexuality, people so often regard “phases” as being silly or insignificant. It’s like, if you had a phase where you suddenly really craved coffee despite never having been interested in it before, no one would say “don’t bother drinking coffee because you might stop craving it eventually.” That’s a stupid analogy, but do you know what I mean? Even if your newfound lesbianism is a phase, don’t you think you should capitalize on it?! If this is your only gay/bi phase, then you should sleep with as many girls as possible before you phase-out and miss the opportunity entirely! Quick! Or, if you actually do prefer girls, for the long term, than you might as well start your crossover to the darkside sooner rather than later, right?

It’s so funny and predictable that your bf thought your attraction to girls was hot, but not a “serious” issue. Men are so egotistical; it’s insane. I had a similar situation with my ex boyfriend. Although I told him I was bi, he never really took it seriously–the only time he noted my bi-ness was when it meant we got to have threesomes. He literally told me that I could sleep with girls on my own, despite he and I being in a monogamous relationship, essentially because he didn’t find women threatening–like “yeah, you’re in an experimental phase, that’s cute,” type of thing. But the joke was on him because I ended up leaving him for one of the girls he found so unthreatening… mwahahaha.

Anyway, the point is: yes, you have every right to experiment with your sexuality, and you should! But you can explore and experiment without cheating on someone at the same time. It’s not really fair to your boyfriend that you’re sneaking around fucking other people. (And I’m pretty sure that even though you didn’t feel like you were cheating, it was still technically cheating–lol). I would never tell you that you should dump him, because I don’t know you, or him, or your relationship well enough to make that major decision for you. But I do think you should consider whether you are hesitant to break up because you’re just scared of change, or of being alone. Of course, those are valid things to be anxious about–5 years is a long time to date someone, and breaking-up sucks. But the fact that you said, “I think if I repress these feelings now I will be unhappy forever” seems like a major sign to me! In life, people far more often regret things the things they didn’t do than the things they did do. 

Also, you’re just 22! You’ve been dating the same person since you were 17! I assume it’s not just that you want to have sex with girls, but that you want to have sex with other people in general. I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that it’s unlikely that you’re going to be with this guy forever. That doesn’t mean it was a failed or regrettable relationship. It just means it’s not the only relationship you’re ever going to be in. If you’re boyfriend is important to you, he can still be in your life as a friend after you join the lesbian mafia.

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X-Mas Gifts for Nymphos


Christmas colors are generally red and white. But why is that, when the combination of red and white creates an even better color–pink! This year, get your loved one of the gift of Pink Christmas, the scent! LOL. For some reason SSION (aka the incredible musician, artist and director) has made a holiday perfume. Below is the very creepy ad for it, which features me and Samantha Urbani. If you want to smell like a pink version of X-Mas, you can buy the scent at Vfiles. Oh, and the new band Slink (a combo of SSION, Samantha Urbani and Hunx and his Punx) just released a holiday song, also called Pink Christmas. You can listen to it HERE :)

Or, if you want to get your loved one a gift on the kinkier side, I have the perfect idea for you! Below, watch me unwrap the ultimate gift for the modern, bi-curious, sexually adventurous nymphomaniac <3 (p.s. watch more of Vogue‘s unboxing videos here! )

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Can Couples Therapy Make Me Less of a Cavewoman?

karley-sciortino-breathless-couples-therapySo, an update in the saga of my very drawn-out and pathetic break-up: my ex has proposed going to couples therapy. Yay? But like, does couples therapy actually work? Can it make me less of an emotional cavewoman (as I’ve been told I am)? Or is the whole situation just embarrassing? Read my latest Breathless column for Vogue to find out HERE :)

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